'Best" Friends

What is the definition of a "best friend"?  There have been so many times in my short life where I thought I had a best friend.  I was wrong so many times before, hurt so many times before that I think I've lost trust in all of my "best friends".  I don't know if I'm friends with a true best friend anymore.  I use to think we were so perfect for each other.  Now I'm thinking, "I think I am really wrong about it this time."  I don't know what to think or what to say to explain the way I feel about this...to explain what I've gone through to give me such doubt...  I just don't know if I'm wrong or right this time.  I think I've lost trust in so many things and so many people that I don't know who to trust anymore.  It's seems that every time I get to trust someone, everything just goes downhill from there.

I've had trust lead me into so many bad things in life that I don't know if I ever what to trust anyone ever again...I don't know if I could risk getting into anymore trouble.

Is a person still my best friend when they lie to me?  How about after they keep things from you or ditch you?  What about when it gets to the point where you don't know if they're lying or not?  I just don't know anymore...

Development

So I recently received a text from my wonderful cousin, Tonja, saying that she had created a blog.  I thought about it and all I could think of is, "what is a blog?"  I knew that my seminary teacher had made one for each one of his classes, but I still had no idea what it was.

Last night when I got home from work, my mom had me look at a women's blog that had written about random, funny things in her life.  I then decided to finally look up Tonja's blog.  When I read it, I was like, "Ohhh!!!  That's what a blog is." haha.  I then found my mom's blog and my aunts blog.  They were pretty cool.  That is when I decided, I wanted to make my own!

I was thinking about what I would put on it or what the name would be.  I decided I wanted some things (funny and serious) about me but I also decided that I wanted to put some pictures up that I've taken in photography.  It's just not fair that only my teacher and classmates see them!  

I was thinking of names and I came up with "Developing My Life" seeing as I develop my own pictures and my own life.  Seeing as I'm only sixteen, most of my life is still a complete mystery to me and I'm the one choosing what I do and when I do it!

This is me, developing my life.  =]